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Involved in it, i'm lookin forward to it though.<br /><br />17th Jan, leaving to PTP, a transportation port, just like PSA, either in malaysia, indonesia, batam i also dunno.<br /><br />these are confirmed so need to get my ass there for all these important dates.<br />still have somemore to go.<br /><br />think i need 2 more extra points from God knows where, and its difficult to see where i am still lackin. just sent an email to a lecturer whom i know. he should know better.<br /><br />after these or arnd these time, got report presentation. one of the 3 most important ones for students in RP.<br />need to prepare for these cos its more than formal. need artwork, presentation materials, and i need help, so if anyone can help, pls let me know. i will appreciate it.<br /><br />all these plus the nvr ending fyp. 7th feb, fyp presentation in the RP exhibition hall. where all students and staff from year 1 to 3 come and play arnd with our work and learn more for themselves. another day i'm looking forward to.<br /><br />all these in a 5 day school week plus work.<br />currently waiting for presentation date for PP report presentation, then can start preparing for it.<br /><br />man, the last few weeks of poly life is one heck of a journey. goona be interesting.<br />ok he just replied me saying:<br /><p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:85%;color:navy;"><span style="font-size: 10pt; color: navy; font-family: Arial;">My dear Charles,<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:85%;color:navy;"><span style="font-size: 10pt; color: navy; font-family: Arial;">Can you do a sum of A+B+C+D?<o:p></o:p></span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-family:Arial;font-size:85%;color:navy;"><span style="font-size: 10pt; color: navy; font-family: Arial;">What do you get?</span></span></p>haha.<br /><br />anyhow i ask for prayers to help me thru these times. its not only me, but for the year 3 students all arnd the other polys.<br />may the force be with us.<br /><br />all the best year 3 students. its in our sights.<br />from now till then, a hectic, stressful, heavy and busy commitment beckons.<br /><br />i hope all received the msg i sent abt the last day of Christmas. made some addition to it, felt that it was very meaningful and something useful.<br /><br />Jill, got ur msg. i'll be updating ur blog addie aft this, thanks for letting me know.<br /><br />oh yea i wanna propose a debate.<br /><br />the pros and cons of saying "thank you"<br /><br />you can put ur comments on ur blogs. let me know i'll go have a look : )<br />i gave away work today so i have sometime for myself to run.<br /><br />yesterday's run was good with Shabin. we did it, abt 6 km in all. best part, none of us felt so tired as to want to give up. determination was there.<br /><br />btw Shabin, i want to thank you for crunches technique. i tried it last night and boy was it good. thanks. i've adopted it as my crunches workout.<br /><br />oh shit, i just rememberd.<br />ARMY MEDICAL CHECKUP on the 15th i think.<br /><br />brb goona go check.<br />its on the 25th on Jan.<br />haha quite exciting considering this is the first step to the big one, ns enlistment = )<br /><br />i have a strong feeling i'll get into police, cos of my npcc history back in secondary skool.<br />police, navy or air force will be my preferred options.<br /><br />and yes a silver before i go in. very important.<br /><br />alrite, im gonna crash for awhile. Shabin i'm coming over later for the pictures. thanks<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p> <medium> scribbled at 11:14 AM</medium><br /><br /> <p> <p></center> <div style="position: absolute; right:300; top:0; width:100; height:25; background-color:transparent; border: 0px solid white;"> <h2><center><script language="JavaScript1.2"> //Neon Lights Text II by G.P.F. 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have i ever said no to something? have i ever said no when you needed something even at my own expense? thats what sacrifice means isnt it?<br /><br />God has blessed me with a heart..maybe i turned too soft..but i will never change it for anything else. its the best part of me..even stranger when i write this, i know who are the ones who are going to doubt what im writing.<br /><br />i seem to have lost maybe 2 friendships. they both forgot everythin...i try to make it better, practically not possible now that ur so happy with new happenings. good for you..not at all upset with that.<br /><br />its hard for me to understand why is it that you sometimes just dont know ur limits..how you just rant and rant..its so unbecoming of you as person..im begining to solidify a few new relationships in skool and 2 more in church..<br /><br />how i want to write so much more over here, so much i want to write. but the audience reading this..how many throughly understand..how many have come up asking if im ok..sometimes im at mass..i wait aft mass to pray..spend so much time in there, no one takes note of it..cept for my closest confidant in the group..<br /><br />when i come out, all i see is everyone being happy talking to each other and so much more happenings..one lesson i have learnt oveer these years, is that dont expect anyone to do any favour, especially when i need it, but instead always be there for anyone, anytime, anywhere. and im glad to say i have fulfilled that before, fulfillin now, and will always fufill it in the future. ive done all i can as a friend and im going to continue doing that..<br /><br />never wanted to say this and the other things i keep in me..only willing and able to tell this to just one or at most 2.the ones i trust the most.<br /><br />on a brighter note, im having fun at skool..having fun with my lecturers, especially one Dr. she's just so nice and caring to me..and she makes fun of me..<br /><br />stop remembering me for the wrong reasons. i nvr did that to you...why do you keep talking abt me and this to others..i know whats happening..the best part is that you dont know i know cos u think ur safe in telling others..but ur not..<br /><br />gd day..bye..<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p> <medium> scribbled at 12:43 AM</medium><br /><br /> <p> <p></center> <div style="position: absolute; right:300; top:0; width:100; height:25; background-color:transparent; border: 0px solid white;"> <h2><center><script language="JavaScript1.2"> //Neon Lights Text II by G.P.F. 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Always had a strong feelings towards Britain, and its definitely got to do with my line of ancestors from there and having its blood flowing in my veins. Thank you movie, it was really good watching you and you sure thought me a whole lot of things. I am goona try to trace my relatives there, my cousins, aunts, uncles, etc…<br /><br />Goona be pretty tough but if I can get hold of at least one cousin, im sure goona be soo glad that I couldn’t ask for more. Michelle if that’s ur name, I’ve seeen ur wedding pictures and its good to know I have u as my blood cousin from my dad’s side. U have a brother too..man how am I to get it touch with u both? And u guys are Texans. Not a chance u will see this. Hopefully one day, I’ll get the chance to see and talk to you both.<br /><br />I spoke to ur mom and dad though a few months back when aunt myra was in hospital. Got to see only ur pictures.<br /><br />Why am I sayin all these..not that u guys gonna read them anyways.<br /><br />Im sure one day, it will happen = ) im goona start searching. I will dig up history to re foster our family ties. Ties that mean to muchhh to me…<br /><br />Its baaackk.Im starting all over once again. Im goona look for you. Im guess im goona start dippin again. Dunno how its goona add up, been out of the league for say 2 years. While those I see are fallin in love and stuff..but I’ve learnt pretty much abt from it.<br /><br />Dunno if I should go back to it, its absence been quite a big hole to fill up..maybe I should have said yes to some, but what I did, either screwed it up or ignored it..<br /><br />as I always say, love is a complicated thing…<br /><br />its hard on one hand to stop loving, but on the other hand, its even tougher to say no to someone who does like you. I was never good at saying sorry to some. Just never. Feeling kinda sucks straight after that..with thoughts like maybe should give a chance, but then again, where is it going to go if i don’t like you?<br /><br />love is a complicated thing, some will agree and some won’t…<br /><br />ciao..<br /><br />ps: hmmm been thinking I write a lot but actually all can be summed up within a paragraph isn’t it..same with all my other entries. Guess just a little long winded..hehehe<div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p> <medium> scribbled at 1:33 PM</medium><br /><br /> <p> <p></center> <div style="position: absolute; right:300; top:0; width:100; height:25; background-color:transparent; border: 0px solid white;"> <h2><center><script language="JavaScript1.2"> //Neon Lights Text II by G.P.F. 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I can’t help wondering the future. Its hard to fathom, its just so hard to understand. Back ago in the past, to think of the year 2010. would be like Whoa, big stuff, high tech stuff just like in the movies. And its just another 4 years to that.<br /><br />As it is, things are changing so quickly, and its our genartation that is going to see the most changes. Not much changes took place between the time of our grandparents to the time of our parents. It us who will see the crux of these changes. I was born in 1985, the world was not too advanced, I mean Internet did not even come in yet, if memory serves me well.<br /><br />Now its 2006 and so many things have changed. Handphones those times, I mean with antaneea, now PDAs, Dopods, etc.<br /><br />Its good and its crazy as well. I can’t think in 10 years time, it will be 2016, gosh what will the world be? Even in churches, whats goona happen?<br /><br />I’m unsure as to what it holds, but it sure is something that’s goona take humans to a whole lot more different level as compared to what it is today. Cars are going to be flying, trains too. Guess going to the moon would be simple as strapping on a jet like engine, turning it on, and zooming off to space.<br /><br />I mean its hard to fathom and its crazy. What about people? What’s goona happen to us..what will become of us..i don’t think what im thinking is far fetched but it certainly is worth thinking. What are yours?<br /><br />Lauretta, you have my user id and password, you can anytime update my blog okies..hahahs like the last one you did =) good day and all the best for your report. let me know, i can help =)<br /><em><span style="color:#006600;"></span></em><br /><span style="color:#ffffff;"><span style="color:#ffcc00;">just one more semester of skool. man im goona do my 2000 word report soon. in a few days.<br /><em><span style="color:#006600;"></span></em></span></span><br /><em><span style="color:#006600;">smoking an affirmation of one's life...</span></em><div style="clear:both; padding-bottom:0.25em"></div><p> <medium> scribbled at 1:44 AM</medium><br /><br /> <p> <p></center> <div style="position: absolute; right:300; top:0; width:100; height:25; background-color:transparent; border: 0px solid white;"> <h2><center><script language="JavaScript1.2"> //Neon Lights Text II by G.P.F. 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a valid reason.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">well.ive been wanting to say this for a really long time.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">and it took me quite awhile to pluck up my courage as i type this.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">well..here goes.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">laurie is gorgeous.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">she really is.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">she is one of da coolest soul ive ever met.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">and losing her would be like losing my hair.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">this is how much she means to me.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">anywayy..i bought deodrant today.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">after much persuasion from my stones.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">its bout time i invest in shampoos,soaps,deodrants and cologne.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">i wanna feel like a real man.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">ya know..nice smell and all.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">afterall ive been smelling real bad all these while.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">my apologies to those noses ive engulfed with my body odour.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">it was never my intention.</span><br /><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">ohh yeah.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">just to let all of u know,ill be away for the next month.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">im going to thailand for an op.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">yes, a sex change.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">its bout time i come face to face with the real me.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">no point hiding it and creating this whole facade.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">ill only end up suffering and hating myself.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">i love him so much ya know.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">and this is the only thing i can do to prove my unconditional love for him.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">darling,i hope this reassures my feelings for you.</span><br /><span style="font-family: verdana;">bcoz i LOVE you soooooo much.</span><div style="clear:both; 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